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[05 Nov 2004|08:50pm] |
new LJ. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ___chiaki_
maybe i'll friend you.
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mental euphoria i love you
my mind's cool novocain
numb the hurt that fills my body
octavia by name
why did you have to leave us
with only tears and memories
i cannot comprehend it
the product of his greed
you're gone and lost forever
such a cruelly taken fate
an angel on this cold earth
crime of lust and hate
it hurts so bad to type this
i need you oh so much
but you'll never read this poem
or feel our loving touch
i don't believe in Heaven
or in God's twist of fate
but for you i hope He is there
and that Heaven is your place
i cannot believe you're gone
it's too horrid to be true
but i know that was the last time
i'd ever say i love you
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[02 Oct 2004|09:20pm] |
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fuck you
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[02 Oct 2004|09:20pm] |
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fuck you
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| thingy. quiz. ish. |
[02 Oct 2004|10:37am] |
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wasted -- circle jerks |
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ok jenny i really need you to fix my layout!!!!!!!!
( random shit )
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[30 Sep 2004|12:53pm] |
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green day // who wrote holden caulfield |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!
i just fucked up my layout!!!! *cries*
will someone please make me a new one??????
sigh......
anyone?
*cough*jenny*cough*
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[30 Sep 2004|12:53pm] |
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green day // who wrote holden caulfield |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!
i just fucked up my layout!!!! *cries*
will someone please make me a new one??????
sigh......
anyone?
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| deep thoughs |
[27 Sep 2004|07:12am] |
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Let Me Out -=- future leaders of america |
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sitting in the dark this morning, i started to think...
this is how a lot of so called "deep" posts start out, so, if you're not in the mood for my morning crisis/momentary flash of brilliance, then, stop reading.
( please... )
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| yesterday's adventures........ |
[26 Sep 2004|02:36pm] |
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The Spicey McHaggis Jig -=- dropkick murpheys |
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sigh. let's see
yesterday was lots of fun. jen and i got doughnuts then her mom picked us up and we went to go get her hair done. stopped in this really fucking awesome hat store, ooomg i could spend so much money there!!! i loooooove hats!!!
(well no duh, im always wearing one, despite school rules. hah)
i saw this top hat that i reeeeeally wanted. im gonna have to save up and buy one. lol
then we got her hair done, its sooooo pretty. gosh jenny is soooo gorgeous. specialy with her new hair cut/color. lol
umm... then we went and looked in this little store with tons of awesome junk and
t-shirts. once again, somewhere to spend lots of money. it also had a ton of really cool books.
then we got burgers and headed off to band practice. ummmmma
band practice rocked so hard. (im not IN the band, im sound/techie person. and i do other shit) it was cool, i came up with the bass part to this soooooong and i sang an old one from forever ago (that i wrote actually)...
and me and jas had a duet... the "meat song"...
the band is called "the vegans". lol.
so, yeah, harry's still gotta get the PA system up so that i can learn how to use it. lol
during Rocktoberfest, gonna be the only band that actually has cool ass special shit down for the different songs. lol
cuz, i get to be the techie. lol, thats fun. i dont actually want to be in the real band. lol
at least, not until i get a lot better. so, for now, working backstage is just what i want.
umm... and i shot a video. its really cool. for a lot of it its sideways. i think its so awesome. lol. i love shooting videos. yeah. i also take band pics. haha, thats so much fun. i love taking pictures. its lots of fun. lol
soooo yeah
done
later mom's having people come over
to watch kung fu
drink these random drink things that taste soooo fucking good
aaand to eat nasty super bowl junk food. should be fun. ehem.
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| today.... just skim and comment, as u always do |
[23 Sep 2004|08:37pm] |
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Thank You For The Venom =-= My Chemical Romance |
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woohoo
today rocked soooooo hard
1st was eh, teacher was in a bad mood, but, ya know. the class was pretty cool. i had to present an article, that was cool. lol. it was interesting.
3rd i started my timeline, it looked really awesome.
lunch i was bored, laaaaame
5th had a test, i think i did ok on it. a lot of the questions were like, tricks... in a way
after school was awesome. most of my peoples had band practice, gettin ready for...
ROCKTOBER!!!! *crazy guitar solo*
so i was alone, then i saw seb and dil and cory, so i walked over to say hi. then saw jake. me and jake walked down to district to look at shit. was really awesome. we spent several hours just hanging out and walking, talking bout life and people and fun stuffs. i also scored five bucks from him. rock.
then was walking to his house, when i saw seb, dil, cory and george, and i said by to jake (he lived too far away, he had a board, but i was walking so we said bye)
and went to dil's house.
umm... it was me, dil, seb, cory, george, jesse, marc, anthony, townsend, rory, aaaaand travis, i think, and they were all skating for george's video. it was mucho funo. then most of them left, so i helped dil with math and broke up fights over who was using the keyboard. then looked at watch. called mom, eep she sounded mad....
lol, hugged everyone who was left (dil, cory, seb, george) goodbye, and hightailed it home, snagging dil's fucking awesome pinstriped hat. heh.
came home, mom was annoyed, but, we had a really good talk. got a lot of shit off my chest, and have to go to school tomorow as punishment for being late. but, its better than being grounded. lol
so, that was my day. i really need a fucking camera, so i can show u pictures....
sigh...
oh well, i loved the picture in my last entry. lol
((random subject change))
finally found my fucking safety pin. i've been loooking everywhere for it. i keep it in my ear in case i need it for something. lol
it was on my tux vest. lol
ooook, so, that's my life. in a nutshell. minus that bad, scarred for life because of childhood trama i will never be free of. but, life is good, i have friends who love me and i love back.... and i got 11 comments on my last entry. jesus christ. was the picture really that special?
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| fun with eyeliner |
[20 Sep 2004|08:56pm] |
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blink =-= dysentary gary |
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gods i wish i had a camera
lmao
my lips are black. as in, black like my hair used to be. marilyn manson style eye makeup.
whoa...
fucking A, man, i reaaaaaally need a camera!!
as soon as i go out, or my dad walks in, im gonna get told off cuz its "not a good idea to put that stuff on your mouth. it could be toxic"
meh, as if i havent put worse things in my mouth. lmao
jk...
or am i??? lololol
haha, ok, i think im fucking high offa the eyeliner. i swear, im ADHD all of a sudden
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| insomnic |
[20 Sep 2004|01:45am] |
insomnia blows
1:45 in the morning. on IM with socky. no where near sleep. fuck. i really need sleep.
dammit.
i have a cool outfit for picture day.
jeans that actually fit, and one of my vests over a black tank top.
and, sabastian's hat, of course.
and i like my hair.
and i just discovered the other night that i had won another trophy on ap.
lol, i had no idea. now i have.... four. i think. not bad a mediocre poet like myself.
and i wrote three new short stories. i like them a lot. no comments cept for one by socky, but
i really like them. i think (hope) my writing is getting better.
sigh. sleep.
i started to watch nip tuck tonight, omg it was awesome, but, mom got grossed out (disturbing as fuck), and turned it off. sigh.
wow, im hungry. damn. lol.
ok, done now.
end.
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| my hair fucking rocks |
[19 Sep 2004|09:08pm] |
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my chemical romance =-= the ghost of you |
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i love my hair. its really awesome. its not bright red, its kinda dark purple red ish, cept the roots, which are really bright. you can still see the black, its coolio.
i'd post a pic, but, i don't have a camera. sigh, i'll just have jas take some, and send them to me. lol
oooooomg, im so happy.
awesome hair, new clothes. my life is sooooo awesome!!!! yay.
found an old shirt that i cut up a long time ago, now that i have a vest to wear over it, i can wear it to school, cuz i fucked the back up. i have a habit of doing that. lol
i can't wait to go to school!!! lol
(just read above entry, i lied. i don't want to go to school. i want.... to.... see my friends, but not go to school. sigh)
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| this is the new shit (marilyn manson fucking rocks) |
[19 Sep 2004|06:00pm] |
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home from shopping
got a pair of jeans from pac sun, rather tight and kinda low. meh, not really though.
apperently my mom wants me to were granny pants. i walk out, and her eyes bug and she looks like she has dinner plates on her face.
"what?"
"those are awfully low honey"
"no they're not, all my pants are like this"
in a strained voice "ok, now go take them off"
lol, that was funny. but, i bought them already, and the tags are off. hehe.
they actually fit, and well. the only pair of jeans i own that do.
also bought two new vests and another pair of black jeans at out of the closet. the black jeans fit, but, are meant to be worn around ur waist, so i pull them down and they're kinda tight. but, who cares. they still fit, and i love them.
yeah.
one vest is fitted and green, the other is a tuxedo vest thingy ma bob. rock.
then got slurpies
spent less than forty on all this. heck yeah!
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[19 Sep 2004|11:08am] |
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today.
lunch with the inlaws. then some thrifting/mall hopping (probly both, maybe not? duno)
once the new clothes are out of the way, on to the hair place
so i can redo my hair. jesus the hair dye faded so quickly this time.
its not really black anymore.
so, i still have to decided if i want to stay black, or go back to being a redhead.
i suppose i'll do the red. it hasn't been really red for about a year.
cheeeeeeeeeescake......
doesnt that sound good???? yummmmmm
i fucking love cheescake. sigh. im gonna get fat.
oh well. that's ok.
oooooomg i had so much fun at the movies!!! squee
stayed up til, well, really early in the morning. i don't remember. i was on yahoo with socky. and i was sewing pretty beads onto my backpack.
then my dad fucking called this morning at like, ten. jesus. wake up calls suck. >:P
but, i have my chemical romance blaring
and steriogram was playing a while ago. so, music makes it all good.
am wearing my hives shirt, inside out jeans, dill's plaid vest, and sabby's hat. rock. i love this hat, arya almost stole it at the movies. he took off running, several times. sigh.
oh well, later in movies all was good *wink wink* lmao
sorry, mind keeps going back to movies. i think it was the first time i got out on a friday night in, well, like, probly over a month, like, really get out. with a large group of people, running around, stealing food offa everyone, aaaaand.... stuff.
lol
ok, i'm almost done with this pointless entry. just one last thing, for you all, what i look like now (not really, its a crappy picture, but, your last glimpse of me with black hair)
if i fuck up with the red, im gonna bleach my hair. back to being blonde. ick.
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[18 Sep 2004|09:52pm] |
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beastie boys -=- hold it now hit it |
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umm...
i spent all day daydreaming and listening to music. and obsessively checking my LJ to see if anyone bothered to comment. sigh.
i have no life.
ordered thai for dinner. ate too much. am now sitting at desk wearing dillan's vest and sabastian's hat. and a t shirt and my dickies. yeah.
um.... jejji just called me. in-laws for lunch tomorow. then math homework. bedroom is..... clean? no, it's not. but its better than it was. i like it messy, i just wish my father did too.
talked on IM with harry for a while. uhhh.... played with my poi. i really have no life. made more cranes. i love oragami.
slept.
and life goes on.
(notice how my lack of complete sentences adds to the effect of being overly apathetic)
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| i woke up at twelve. henceforth, am not at school today. |
[17 Sep 2004|12:15pm] |
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duno who it is... some random person i have on my itunes |
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walk out of my room this morning
find mother staring at me like she just saw a ghost. then she started laughing. slumping down on the sofa, i ask "what" sleep, still weighing my down, mom looks at me and says "i though you were at school, i woke you up"
emmy walks in and goes, "what are you doing here"
i turn ane look at her
emmy "its twelve"
me "oh"
so, i slept in really late
and no one knew, cuz they all thought i left for school. oh well, i told you all that i wasn't coming to school today, so, i suppose it works. even though i actually wanted to go today.
sigh
so, to amuse you, i took quizzes. for more results, go to my xanga
You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.
You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven
black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No
one really knows why your feathers are this
dark, because you always conceal yourself with
a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and
you take it out on others and the world. In
Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted
and dead, because you were hurt so badly that
youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings
were white, and slowly, when your life was
changing, so was the color. You have no
friends, because you cant let anyone get too
close to you. Grief fills your heart, though
anger blinds your eyes.
What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
brought to you by Quizilla
You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough. (please
forgive me if you cannot see the pics. If you
go to my userpage then you can see your result
picture at the bottom)
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla
yeah
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