like the broken raven's wing

brandname_spank @ 2004-11-05T20:50:00

2004-11-06T04:51:07Z

new LJ. ___chiaki_
maybe i'll friend you.

----------------------------------------------------

mental euphoria i love you
my mind's cool novocain
numb the hurt that fills my body
octavia by name

why did you have to leave us
with only tears and memories
i cannot comprehend it
the product of his greed

you're gone and lost forever
such a cruelly taken fate
an angel on this cold earth
crime of lust and hate

it hurts so bad to type this
i need you oh so much
but you'll never read this poem
or feel our loving touch

i don't believe in Heaven
or in God's twist of fate
but for you i hope He is there
and that Heaven is your place

i cannot believe you're gone
it's too horrid to be true
but i know that was the last time
i'd ever say i love you

brandname_spank @ 2004-10-02T21:20:00

2004-10-03T04:39:51Z

_{fuck you}

brandname_spank @ 2004-10-02T21:20:00

2004-10-03T04:38:22Z

_{fuck you}

if easily offended, or a strong believer in jesus, please, don't click.

2004-10-02T21:24:10Z

ooook
so, if pro-bush, or strong believer in jesus.... don't click. simple.

*snerk*

thingy. quiz. ish.

2004-10-02T18:00:46Z

ok jenny i really need you to fix my layout!!!!!!!!

WHO LAST...
Slept in your bed:i did. in fact, i just got out of it.
Saw you cry:the chicks in my cabin at camp.... dana and julia i think
Made you cry: dicklett
You shared a drink with: haha seb and dill... the fuckers got me sick
You went to the movies with:jenny, and we met up w/heather, payman, diego, tom, aaaand tina? i duno. people.
You went to the mall with:my mom... and my sister. blah
Yelled at you: haha jejji, wait, jejji or dill. does AIM count? ifso, then jejji. if not, me and dil got into an argument over whether or not you can get poisoned by touching a green lady bug. YOU CANT. just to let you know.
Sent you an email: haha socky.

HAVE YOU EVER...
Said "I Love You" and meant it: yes
Gotten in a fight with your pet:hahah yeah

BEEN TO...
California: ya
Hawaii: no
Mexico: yeah
China: No
Canada: noooooo *cries* i wish....

EXTRA STUFF...
Who is your best friend: uhhhh....
What clothes do you sleep in: uhh... lots of time whatever i wore that day. but, lately, my plaid cut off things, socks, and w/e shirt i find
Where do you want to get married: i dont want to get married
Who do you really hate: no one *cough*kyle*cough
Been in Love: yeah, i have
Do you drive: nope
Do you like being around people: eh.
Are you for world peace: yeah, but, we'll never get it if we keep bombing other countries
Are you a health freak: haha fuck no
Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with:umm.... i duno
Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yeah. the last time i cried.
Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: haha yeah. i do.
Are you lonely right now: i've spent the last two days in my room. alone. and i will spend the next two days in my room. alone. what do you think?
actually, i miss certain people, but, im not that lonely
Song thats stuck in your head a lot: lollirot by jack off jill
Do you want to get married: no
Do you want kids: noooooooooo!

FAVORITE...
Room in house: my bedroom. though, i wish the walls were a different color
Type(s) of music: i likey.... punk, brit rock, celtic rock, alt, goth rock, umm.... rap/rock.... haha, oldies
so, yeah. mostly diff. types of rock
Perfume or cologne: ew. no
Month: shit. december. or october. or february. yeah
Stone: hmm.. i duno... ruby i think

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
Cried: no
Bought something: no
Gotten sick: yeah.
Sang: yah. it hurt. i stopped.
Said "I love you": uhh... i duno
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yeah, but, i duno who. lol my intrests are divided
Met someone new: no. sigh
Missed someone: YES!!!!
Hugged someone: my dad
Kissed someone: no

LAST....
song you heard: something by jack off jill... i duno
Movie you saw: the breakfast club
drink you bought: mocha frap. hah. mostly other people buy me drinks
thing you stole: hmmm.... i don't remember.
Thought of purchasing hookers: hahah long story. couple days ago. *(it was a joke)
thing you ate: mac and cheese, last night
Ate a 7 - 11 hot dog: a long ass time ago. w/ree.

i killed alice

2004-10-01T03:16:28Z

_{i killed alice

_{i killed alice
the land of fairytale
screw cinderella
a test they cannot fail

pretty words and dresses
skinny girls to goggle at
with their curly shining tresses
high from the madman's hat

the land of make believe
and i don't believe in you
this land i can't conceive
and i won't believe for you

screw sleeping beauty
and screw your snow white too
and screw lies they tell you
to make you forget you

don't sit and wait for charming
no one left to save your soul
they it sold to the devil
it's the media that stole

i killed alice
the land of all your dreams
fuck cinderella
and fuck the fairy tale queens}}

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-30T12:53:00

2004-09-30T19:57:45Z

shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!

i just fucked up my layout!!!! *cries*
will someone please make me a new one??????
sigh......

anyone?

*cough*jenny*cough*

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-30T12:53:00

2004-09-30T19:57:30Z

shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!

i just fucked up my layout!!!! *cries*
will someone please make me a new one??????
sigh......

anyone?

deep thoughs

2004-09-27T14:14:53Z

sitting in the dark this morning, i started to think...

this is how a lot of so called "deep" posts start out, so, if you're not in the mood for my morning crisis/momentary flash of brilliance, then, stop reading.

i was cold, and wrapped in a towel and sitting on the milk crate next to my desk. feeling alone, i wanted so badly to cry i was ready to do anything. music was blaring from my speakers, and i wanted to die.

i slowly walked to the door, wanting to escape my life, wanting to leave everything behind, everything. i didn't want anything to do with me. i hated myself. (i make this sound like i don't feel this way anymore... like im over all my bad feelings... im not)
i flicked the light switch.

and nothing happened. whipping my head around, i stared at the switch, scared. why isn't anything working for me?
then i remembered that my light had two switches, and the other was off. not moving except to brush wet hair out of my eyes, i stared at it. i flicked the switch again. though common sense told me to stop, or just hit the other switch, i franticly kept flicking that one switch.

faster, faster, a horrid feeling of failure in the pit of my stomach...

i knew what i had to do to make it work, i knew how to make everything better. i knew how to turn my light on.

but i didn't want to. i wanted to....

i don't know what i wanted. i wanted to sit in the dark... i wanted light... i wanted...
i wanted so much. i still do.

and i have the power to get it. i know how to get what i want. sure, its not nearly as easy as flicking a second light switch....

but, i didn't have to sit in the dark, flicking away my life hopelessly. afraid i would never be able to do anything, be anyone.

but, in a way, i strive for that struggle, for that pain. its almost like the cutter's cry of "it makes me know im alive" it... its my way of feeling real. creating problems for myself that aren't really there. just...
making things harder.
pushing people away.
i don't want to fit in.
but i don't want to be alone either.
i don't like people talking about me.
but i love to make people talk.

returning to my milk crate, i looked in the mirror. clutching an oversized purple towel to herself, i saw someone i didn't know in the mirror.
i saw me.

or, at least, i saw the me that everyone else saw. tears that refused to fall clogged my eyes, making my vision blurry. i choked them back. i refuse to cry over myself.
i saw myself, standing, alone in the dark, helpless. hopeless. but clutching to the threads of life so hard that tension would be the only thing to break them.

i saw myself, drowning in my own surpressed tears, because i was conciously pushing help away, and screaming at the top of my lungs for it.

i could take the hand, be welcome, have at least some of what i want.
be a little happier inside.

but, is happiness what i really want?

yesterday's adventures........

2004-09-26T21:38:51Z

sigh. let's see
yesterday was lots of fun. jen and i got doughnuts then her mom picked us up and we went to go get her hair done. stopped in this really fucking awesome hat store, ooomg i could spend so much money there!!! i loooooove hats!!!
(well no duh, im always wearing one, despite school rules. hah)
i saw this top hat that i reeeeeally wanted. im gonna have to save up and buy one. lol
then we got her hair done, its sooooo pretty. gosh jenny is soooo gorgeous. specialy with her new hair cut/color. lol
umm... then we went and looked in this little store with tons of awesome junk and
t-shirts. once again, somewhere to spend lots of money. it also had a ton of really cool books.
then we got burgers and headed off to band practice. ummmmma
band practice rocked so hard. (im not IN the band, im sound/techie person. and i do other shit) it was cool, i came up with the bass part to this soooooong and i sang an old one from forever ago (that i wrote actually)...
and me and jas had a duet... the "meat song"...
the band is called "the vegans". lol.
so, yeah, harry's still gotta get the PA system up so that i can learn how to use it. lol
during Rocktoberfest, gonna be the only band that actually has cool ass special shit down for the different songs. lol
cuz, i get to be the techie. lol, thats fun. i dont actually want to be in the real band. lol
at least, not until i get a lot better. so, for now, working backstage is just what i want.
umm... and i shot a video. its really cool. for a lot of it its sideways. i think its so awesome. lol. i love shooting videos. yeah. i also take band pics. haha, thats so much fun. i love taking pictures. its lots of fun. lol
soooo yeah
done
later mom's having people come over
to watch kung fu
drink these random drink things that taste soooo fucking good
aaand to eat nasty super bowl junk food. should be fun. ehem.

today.... just skim and comment, as u always do

2004-09-24T03:39:15Z

woohoo
today rocked soooooo hard

1st was eh, teacher was in a bad mood, but, ya know. the class was pretty cool. i had to present an article, that was cool. lol. it was interesting.

3rd i started my timeline, it looked really awesome.

lunch i was bored, laaaaame

5th had a test, i think i did ok on it. a lot of the questions were like, tricks... in a way

after school was awesome. most of my peoples had band practice, gettin ready for...
ROCKTOBER!!!! *crazy guitar solo*
so i was alone, then i saw seb and dil and cory, so i walked over to say hi. then saw jake. me and jake walked down to district to look at shit. was really awesome. we spent several hours just hanging out and walking, talking bout life and people and fun stuffs. i also scored five bucks from him. rock.
then was walking to his house, when i saw seb, dil, cory and george, and i said by to jake (he lived too far away, he had a board, but i was walking so we said bye)
and went to dil's house.
umm... it was me, dil, seb, cory, george, jesse, marc, anthony, townsend, rory, aaaaand travis, i think, and they were all skating for george's video. it was mucho funo. then most of them left, so i helped dil with math and broke up fights over who was using the keyboard. then looked at watch. called mom, eep she sounded mad....
lol, hugged everyone who was left (dil, cory, seb, george) goodbye, and hightailed it home, snagging dil's fucking awesome pinstriped hat. heh.
came home, mom was annoyed, but, we had a really good talk. got a lot of shit off my chest, and have to go to school tomorow as punishment for being late. but, its better than being grounded. lol

so, that was my day. i really need a fucking camera, so i can show u pictures....
sigh...
oh well, i loved the picture in my last entry. lol

((random subject change))

finally found my fucking safety pin. i've been loooking everywhere for it. i keep it in my ear in case i need it for something. lol
it was on my tux vest. lol
ooook, so, that's my life. in a nutshell. minus that bad, scarred for life because of childhood trama i will never be free of. but, life is good, i have friends who love me and i love back.... and i got 11 comments on my last entry. jesus christ. was the picture really that special?

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-21T19:42:00

2004-09-22T02:44:46Z

was fun, wore crow/clockwork orange style eyeliner and lip stuffs. having never seen either of these movies i duno if i did a good job, but, people seemed to appreciate, so to speak, the change.

i almost made one little girl cry. i forgot i was wearing it. and i look scary when i smile. ehem.

an ok picture. i look kinda fat in it. hahahahaha

lots of "OH MY GODS!" and people staring. was fun.

first period was eh. took a quiz, was easy. got another test back, aced it.

third finished poster, eeeeeasy. i love rainbow. unfortunetly, one chick in my group was homophobic (i fucking hate that word), and wouldnt let me put lots of rainbow letters.
grrr

fifth was interesting, just wrote down shiat and talked, i like saidy. u can call out in her class, and she's very open minded. i also have a loud and extremely smart class, who question everything. so, we ended up annoying all our teachers today, cuz, we're just too smart. *smug look*

cough cough

after school was awesome. hung with jake for a while, i love jake, he's so awesome.
we talked about like, everything, lol.
ummm.... then walked to cubby's with seb, dillan, and mario. seb was unusually quiet and looked depressed. wouldn't tell anyone what was wrong. mario was happy for a while, then got depressed over his dad. sigh.
me and dil had a jolly time, while seb and mario just hung in the back.
then walked home, said bye to the scrubs, and mario walked with me and em.
me and mario had a very interesting talk about our dads. i felt super bad for him, he had to see his dad today. ick. but, it was good, we got into some really deep shiat.
so, was all good.

when i got home i decided i was tired of the goth look. so i put on some tight ass light blue jeans, a little tiny sparkly white tank top with strawberries on it, and an orange belt thing with white polka dots. washed off all eyeliner, and put a tiny bit around my eyes.

scary.
am now wearing same jeans, a loose black pirate shirt, and dil's plaid vest.
going out to dinner soon. woopee

fun with eyeliner

2004-09-21T04:01:54Z

gods i wish i had a camera

lmao
my lips are black. as in, black like my hair used to be. marilyn manson style eye makeup.

whoa...
fucking A, man, i reaaaaaally need a camera!!

as soon as i go out, or my dad walks in, im gonna get told off cuz its "not a good idea to put that stuff on your mouth. it could be toxic"
meh, as if i havent put worse things in my mouth. lmao
jk...

or am i??? lololol

haha, ok, i think im fucking high offa the eyeliner. i swear, im ADHD all of a sudden

insomnic

2004-09-20T08:55:58Z

insomnia blows

1:45 in the morning. on IM with socky. no where near sleep. fuck. i really need sleep.
dammit.

i have a cool outfit for picture day.
jeans that actually fit, and one of my vests over a black tank top.
and, sabastian's hat, of course.

and i like my hair.
and i just discovered the other night that i had won another trophy on ap.
lol, i had no idea. now i have.... four. i think. not bad a mediocre poet like myself.
and i wrote three new short stories. i like them a lot. no comments cept for one by socky, but
i really like them. i think (hope) my writing is getting better.

sigh. sleep.

i started to watch nip tuck tonight, omg it was awesome, but, mom got grossed out (disturbing as fuck), and turned it off. sigh.

wow, im hungry. damn. lol.
ok, done now.
end.

my hair fucking rocks

2004-09-20T04:15:41Z

i love my hair. its really awesome. its not bright red, its kinda dark purple red ish, cept the roots, which are really bright. you can still see the black, its coolio.
i'd post a pic, but, i don't have a camera. sigh, i'll just have jas take some, and send them to me. lol
oooooomg, im so happy.
awesome hair, new clothes. my life is sooooo awesome!!!! yay.

found an old shirt that i cut up a long time ago, now that i have a vest to wear over it, i can wear it to school, cuz i fucked the back up. i have a habit of doing that. lol

i can't wait to go to school!!! lol

(just read above entry, i lied. i don't want to go to school. i want.... to.... see my friends, but not go to school. sigh)

this is the new shit (marilyn manson fucking rocks)

2004-09-20T01:06:42Z

home from shopping
got a pair of jeans from pac sun, rather tight and kinda low. meh, not really though.
apperently my mom wants me to were granny pants. i walk out, and her eyes bug and she looks like she has dinner plates on her face.
"what?"
"those are awfully low honey"
"no they're not, all my pants are like this"
in a strained voice "ok, now go take them off"

lol, that was funny. but, i bought them already, and the tags are off. hehe.
they actually fit, and well. the only pair of jeans i own that do.
also bought two new vests and another pair of black jeans at out of the closet. the black jeans fit, but, are meant to be worn around ur waist, so i pull them down and they're kinda tight. but, who cares. they still fit, and i love them.
yeah.
one vest is fitted and green, the other is a tuxedo vest thingy ma bob. rock.
then got slurpies
spent less than forty on all this. heck yeah!

so....

2004-09-19T18:20:43Z

today.
lunch with the inlaws. then some thrifting/mall hopping (probly both, maybe not? duno)
once the new clothes are out of the way, on to the hair place
so i can redo my hair. jesus the hair dye faded so quickly this time.
its not really black anymore.
so, i still have to decided if i want to stay black, or go back to being a redhead.
i suppose i'll do the red. it hasn't been really red for about a year.

cheeeeeeeeeescake......
doesnt that sound good???? yummmmmm
i fucking love cheescake. sigh. im gonna get fat.
oh well. that's ok.

_{oooooomg i had so much fun at the movies!!! squee}

stayed up til, well, really early in the morning. i don't remember. i was on yahoo with socky. and i was sewing pretty beads onto my backpack.
then my dad fucking called this morning at like, ten. jesus. wake up calls suck. >:P
but, i have my chemical romance blaring
and steriogram was playing a while ago. so, music makes it all good.

am wearing my hives shirt, inside out jeans, dill's plaid vest, and sabby's hat. rock. i love this hat, arya almost stole it at the movies. he took off running, several times. sigh.
oh well, later in movies all was good *wink wink* lmao

sorry, mind keeps going back to movies. i think it was the first time i got out on a friday night in, well, like, probly over a month, like, really get out. with a large group of people, running around, stealing food offa everyone, aaaaand.... stuff.
lol

ok, i'm almost done with this pointless entry. just one last thing, for you all, what i look like now (not really, its a crappy picture, but, your last glimpse of me with black hair)

if i fuck up with the red, im gonna bleach my hair. back to being blonde. ick.

cool bands

2004-09-19T08:28:53Z

two new favorite bands to add to my collection

my chemical romance

steriogram

ok, done now

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-18T21:52:00

2004-09-19T05:05:05Z

umm...
i spent all day daydreaming and listening to music. and obsessively checking my LJ to see if anyone bothered to comment. sigh.
i have no life.
ordered thai for dinner. ate too much. am now sitting at desk wearing dillan's vest and sabastian's hat. and a t shirt and my dickies. yeah.
um.... jejji just called me. in-laws for lunch tomorow. then math homework. bedroom is..... clean? no, it's not. but its better than it was. i like it messy, i just wish my father did too.
talked on IM with harry for a while. uhhh.... played with my poi. i really have no life. made more cranes. i love oragami.
slept.
and life goes on.

(notice how my lack of complete sentences adds to the effect of being overly apathetic)

i woke up at twelve. henceforth, am not at school today.

2004-09-17T19:22:06Z

walk out of my room this morning
find mother staring at me like she just saw a ghost. then she started laughing. slumping down on the sofa, i ask "what" sleep, still weighing my down, mom looks at me and says "i though you were at school, i woke you up"
emmy walks in and goes, "what are you doing here"
i turn ane look at her
emmy "its twelve"
me "oh"
so, i slept in really late
and no one knew, cuz they all thought i left for school. oh well, i told you all that i wasn't coming to school today, so, i suppose it works. even though i actually wanted to go today.
sigh
so, to amuse you, i took quizzes. for more results, go to my xanga

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.

You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven
black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No
one really knows why your feathers are this
dark, because you always conceal yourself with
a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and
you take it out on others and the world. In
Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted
and dead, because you were hurt so badly that
youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings
were white, and slowly, when your life was
changing, so was the color. You have no
friends, because you cant let anyone get too
close to you. Grief fills your heart, though
anger blinds your eyes.

What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
brought to you by Quizilla

You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough. (please
forgive me if you cannot see the pics. If you
go to my userpage then you can see your result
picture at the bottom)

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla

yeah

another long ass entry about my days. paul is hot. im afraid of sales associates. and so goes life

2004-09-16T01:46:54Z

homework fucking blows

ok, so, another useless account of my day

2nd
was fun.... saw sabastian (still need a nickname... suggestions?)
we built pyramids with people
the guy who looks like orlando bloom only not as cute was staring at me....
kinda scared me.....
hes cute though
eh
afterwards talked to sab. (abbreviation for now) and connor and jejji. jejji elbowed me so hard in the back i was almost crying, so i proceded to cuss her out, sort of. got yelled at for cussing. by mr. lozano, who gave me a dirty look and said "hey, sorcha, stop cussing" but didn't get me in trouble

4
i hate wilcox. she's making me do the hw the lame way. so it'll take forever. instead of ten minutes. fucker

6
mr. lozano made us work out. oooooow
saw dillan and cory. ayla went out with him?
gods im sooooo late
though, i give her points for going out with him though he was a scrub. non-ageist
meaning not that shallow. good for her. (not sarcasm, i do think more highly of her now. even though she did dump him. but its the principle of the thing)
gods.... i hate working out. but, i think i actually did some of the pushups correctly. yay.

after school
i love my scrub friends. we (scrubs, me, jacob, jas) all crashed at dill's house for ten fifteen mins, grabbed a soda, played with his guitar....
left for tace bell
where we met up with paul
and had lots of fun. paul's hot. i think so anyway.
sooooo
that was fun, then we walked to the library, met up with some random seventh graders we didn't know
one of whom looked at me, grabbed dill and said "he wants to look at your tits"
ignoring dill's squeals of protest (yeah, he squeals, and giggles.... its so fucking cute. u just want to hug him. but he'd probably bite you.... i mean, if some random person walked up and hugged him, he'd bite them. not me..... i gave him a pin. wow that sounded wrong..... not in the old high school meaning of pin... ehem)
aaaand im like.... "no one gets to see my boobs... cept me *evil grin*"
then called mom, found out emmy stayed home, said bye
as i was leaving that guy who i mention earlier walked up to me and said "you have nice titties" then he started laughing and was like, "just kidding" but he wasn't.
ummmmm.....
scary.... seventh graders are gettting waaaaaaay outta line man. dude

so, said by to my little "posse"
and walked home
am afraid of going into stores alone and buying stuff. seriously. i needed to go buy hair shit. but, i didn't, cuz asking sales assistants for help scares me.

procrastination... sigh, it's a beautiful game.

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-14T18:37:00

2004-09-15T01:42:51Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

not particularly paranoid, borderline, antisocial or narcissistic
pretty much other than that, it just says im highly dysfunctional.

lol, to read what all this shit means, go here
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html#histrionic

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-14T17:41:00

2004-09-15T00:50:45Z

today was.... 1/2 and 1/2
school itself kinda stunk, i love jejji with all my heart
but, she's too good at telling it like it is. which can get ya down sometimes. but, its important to hear. and, at this point, i don't care. im single. woopee
who gives a fuck? it doesnt matter, i dont need someone else to complete me. yah, it'd be nice not to be single..... and to have someone there
but i don't need it
and, id like to thank jejji for making me realize that. and socky too. she's been telling me that since the begining
lol
after school wandered alone for a while..... :(
then went to the library, and saw victor, who told me where dill and sabastian were. went to elementary school, found dill, and he was pissed.... tee hee
lots of drama between them all.... they're forgetful, lol, so sabastian and jacob has completely ditched him, cuz he had detention. when we found them there was a minor scuffle and some rather unpleasant names being called, gods it was fucking hilarious....
walked to cubby's, aaaaand i left late to get emmy, cuz i was waiting for sabby's(new nickname i've just created, sabastian is too long too write) bagel to get cooked
theeeeen went to get emmy, who wasnt there. i freaked cuz i was late and she might have been kidnapped
then found out she went home sick
went back to scrub friends
aaaaaaand we all crashed at dill's for a while, dill has a fucking awesome guitar, i want!!!!
ummm..... then i had to rush back home, jesus christ that was hell....
umm.... stole sabby's hat again
(have just decided sabby is a horrid name and i need a new one for him. will meditate on that later)
gonna dye my hair again tonight.
surprise....
just wait to see what it looks like... not JUST black anymore....
mehe

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-10T18:37:00

2004-09-11T01:56:35Z

2nd period
finished folder, was pretty, then mrs. wyatt made me color it in. fucked. talked to current crush. <3
talked to sebastian as well, told him i'd "sneak" him and his friends over to the eighth grade side (they're the "cool" scrubs, the little punk ones in tight pants that have cool ass hair. yeah. if they were two years older they'd be the answer to my prayers. hah)

4th period
OMG, I HATE WILCOX
nuff said

lunch
little scrubs came with us to eighth grade side. ummm.... didn't eat anything. forgot to grab food this morning.
made plans to maybe go to movies later

6th
FIT 4 LIFE!!!
hell in a bottle!
eep. he made us run a lot and work out. fuck.

after school
hung out with jas. watched mario and kyle and trent's band practice. am officialy hated by both trent and kyle. got called a fucking poser because i wanted to hold mario's guitar and play with it. looked at trent and said "im not a poser, and, even if i was, what does that have to do with how well i play guitar?" having never actually heard me play, he shut up. bitch.
but mario's cool, so, the other guys didn't give me too much shit. walked to liquor store for fifty cent sodas. went to harry's. who also now hates me. cuz i dyed my hair black. and am a poser. fucker. got jas' guitar, then went and sat in the high school for a while talking bout life and people. jas had to goooo, aaaaaand, we called dillan (scrub friend in tight pants) aaand made plans to call later to see what the deal with the movies was. went home.

day. end.

brandname_spank @ 2004-09-05T20:04:00

2004-09-06T03:06:21Z

i'ma a google whore. what can i say?